Prussian Blue

Natalia sat on a bench at the garden outside the mansion and looked down. Inside the dark room people were dancing, chatting or even chasing each other. The music eerie and dark was fitting the atmosphere. The atmosphere of a Halloween night in England's house. The person who love that celebration almost more than anyone. Well there was another one who loved that day. No! She wouldn't think about that. She would just take a few breaths of clear air, she would salute the others inside and she would go home. Nice and easy and calm. She didn't need anther breakdown. And pills would help her sleep. And tomorrow is another day.
She fixed her dress a little. She was feeling cold. The dress was awesome but it was leaving exposed her back and her shoulders. She shivered a little. The dress was awesome but she didn't want to wear it. It wasn't supposed to be like that. She wasn't supposed to be alone. It was supposed to be a matching dress up. She was Helena and he would be dressed like Gerard way in the Black Parade performance. That would be if he would still be around. He really loved that band. And he was considering Gerard Way his human impersonator after that video. Now he was gone. And wearing that dress without him mad her feel empty.
Helena... She looked down on herself. A reflection of death. Like the lyrics. So Long And Goodnight. That was the last thing he told to her. Just moments before she lost him. That memory haunted her. These words. She even got a tattoo with them. She had a long life ahead of her and she would be bearing her bigger loss on her skin forever and ever. She didn't even regret the pain she went through and the view of the needle. B that he was completely emotionless. As emotionless as she was when she threw the bouquet on his coffin. The only thing she didn't have the nerve to do was to visit his grave again. She couldn't just face it. In the shape of the Teutonic cross and his name written on it with silver letters. GILBERT. In a twisted sense of humor, she knew that he would be thrilled to see it.
She looked down on her shoes and took a deep breath ready to get up and go home. Then she noticed someone sitting next to her. When did he even come? She turned to take a better look on him. He was wearing a black/silver military uniform and.....She started feeling dizzy. His hair was silver and when he turned, his face!
“What kind of twisted joke is that? Who---Who are you?!”
She was shivering. She was getting pale and she was breathing fast. Inside her mind she swore to kill whoever had that cruel idea. Like her could be a good reason for laughing. Tears started rolling on her cheeks. The man who could just not be him just smiled and fondled hr cheeks wiping them.
“ Not even one year after my death and you forgot me already? Nat you disappoint me”
She grabbed his fingers with her trembling hand and looked at him.
“No!! It can't be you” she laugh almost in insanity “I must be losing my mind”
He took her face in his palms and just stared at her with that red eyes of his. Red like blood. Like Hell. Like the setting sun. Like Love. He just passed a hand on her hair playing with them just as he used to do smiling.
“You don’t pay much attention to what Arthur says” he chuckled “Well I don't blame you. But seems that you didn't pay much attention at me when I was alive either. Maybe now that I am dead, you will start listening.” he sighed and then smiled again “This is the only night that the dead and the spirits can walk the Earth and contact the living. Awesome, isn't it? Well I have to admit that I was looking forward to that night. Missing you is unawesome”
She buried her face in his chest crying.
“I missed you!! I missed you so much!!”
He just lift her face and kissed her and then held her close to him. She held him tighter chocking in her sobs. He fondled her back tenderly.
“I like your dress. It looks as awesome on you as I thought it would”
He started playing with her hair again and chuckled. “Of course it would look even better on our bedroom's floor, don't you think?”
She fondled his face and kissed him again. And then she just put her face on his shoulder being quiet for once in their shared life. Well in this case, afterlife. He kept fondling her back with a sad smile.
“Stay, don't leave me again please” she mumbled under her breath.
He sighed and looked at her. “I wish I could Nat, I wish I could. But I am not making the rules. That's why they are so unawesome. One day and that's it” he frowned as she put her face in her palms.
“Don't leave me again!!! I can't lose you again!!! I can't!!!”
He made her look at him. “Forever Yours! When someone like me says that, it means forever. The fact that you don't see me doesn't mean that I am not yours. Alright?”
She stared at him speechless and confused. And the clock rang midnight. He stood up and kneeled in front of her holding her hand.
“My time is up my lady. But I will leave you wit this.”  He put a rose on her lap. A blue rose.
“So Long and Goodnight” He kissed her one last time and smirked as he faded. She was left alone, holding the rose. She even pressed her finger on the nails of the rose to make sure that she wasn't dreaming. She wasn't.....
Not much time her sister came out holding her coat. She put it on her shoulders and sat nest to her.
“You are going to freeze to death”
“ I don't care”
Katerina looked at her with a sad expression.
“What are you doing out here all alone?”
“I wasn't alone. I was with Gil!”
Katerina bit her lips looking at her. She feared that she snapped again.
“Sister you were alone the whole time.....No---No one was here...”
Natalia kept staring in front of her blankly.
“I---I think it's time to go home. o---ok sister?”
She nodded. Katerina stood up and walked to the door. When she turned she noticed that Natalia was playing with a rose in her palms.
“Be---be careful with the rose sister. You could hurt yourself”
Natalia looked back one last time and then turned to her sister.
“Sister, do you know how do they call that colour?” She pointed at her rose and katerina noded no
“Prussian Blue.........”
       

          Happy Halloween!